2011

Well, I'm sure I'll be sleeping in a few minutes (not a great feeling day), but I feel like I should commemorate the end of year. Why? I don't know. I've never been a huge fan of NYE (probably because my parents aren't)... sometimes I'll go to friends' houses, but never anything big. Tonight, in pj's, ready to crash.
I started this blog in 2011 - as a photo challenge, but it has evolved. I don't mind that at all - we all evolve as people, so why not what I use to 'vent?' And really, blogs don't need to have rules :)
Here's what I remember from 2011 (my warped view, of course - the only one that counts here lol)

Lest we forget

It's the day of the year, where we remember the sacrifices made by people in the past, and now, in the present. While I remember people from other wars, this day always makes me focus on WWII.
Both of my grandfathers were involved in the war, but very differently. One was in the military, the other a conscientious objector.

This is a pity, working through it post, FYI

Most of the people who've seen me (or see me regularly) know that I haven't been feeling well lately. I'm getting nervous about it, but know that it will be fine.

Random advice

Never see your guests out the door!! Mom and Dad and Meg were at the cabin for supper... Dad and Mom left, and I went out behind them. Dad locked the doorknob.
Of course, they pull away and I try to go back in. Tried to sprint down the road to meet catch their attention  (all the way to the Guide camp), and apparently Dad doesn't like using review mirrors. Thankfully a person who lives down the road saw me and let me use their phone... right by the gate. Did I mention I was barefoot, walking down a paved road (or a gravel driveway of the neighbours)?

Thankfully my parents came back to let me in :) There was a chance I would have to climb into a window (there's still one that's older)... thankfully my b/e career didn't start tonight.

Now I'm completely exhausted. Not from the sprint - my breathing returned to normal quickly *thank you jogging! I've been exhausted for a few weeks, and it's just kicking in. Hopefully I hear from my doctor soon... had a few tests done. I want to feel normal again - okay, "MY" normal :)

Randomness done for now. Sleep time zzzzzzzzzzzz

Yes, this is a 9/11 post...

I haven't posted in awhile... there's been a bunch of stuff (some crap, some good, all busy). But, in any case, I feel I have to comment on today.

I have a few different posts that I'm thinking about, but this one I need to do today now that I'm back with full internet. Like so many Canadians, I was quite sad to hear about Jack Layton's death.
While I didn't grow up with overly political parents, we did discuss it a lot as I entered high school and university. I've had a healthy understanding of the events and party policies, but would not be the one to really start the political conversation with others. I know I don't share the same view as some of my overly opinionated relatives and have learned to not even mention it.
Jack Layton did get more people interested (or remotely engaged) in politics. His personality and passion were huge parts of that engagement. But he really appeared to be interested in fairness and equality. What I've been most impressed with is his push for advocacy. As someone who pushes younger people to make opinions and take a stand through Girl Guides, it was interesting to see him accomplish it, especially during the election.
He celebrated with the Girl Guides in 2010 when we had a huge celebration on Parliament Hill. Our PM couldn't show - didn't even have many Conservatives there - but Jack Layton showed up. Judging from the people I know that attended, he spoke with all the younger girls there and was patient and genuinely happy to be there. Support a cause I would say I'm passionate about, and you've piqued my interest more.
As a musician (even an artist in general), his absence concerns me. As a teacher with the talks about "mirroring" the states, his absence frightens me. I hope there will be a presence soon in Parliament that can encourage discussion rather than yelling and pushing through everything.

Thank you Jack, for all the influence and inspiration you've shown me, not even solely in a political sense. As a supporter, I will mourn your absence in national politics. Rest in peace, and may your family and friends find the strength and support to continue.

Other posts will come another time. Here's to the orange.

Weird combinations of events...

First off, went to a huge wedding on the weekend. My cousin married a great woman (who happened to go to WM too - woohoo) and she really has been family since she started dating him. It's funny that she still calls Dad "Mr. Peters" instinctively - even in the receiving line! ;) My grandmother said after the first time she met her that my cousin better marry her, or she would disown him... so I'm sure Grandma was watching over the nuptials! It was a gorgeous day, and everything went beautifully.
But it was a very traditional Ukranian wedding. Very Ukranian - and huge! 400+ people at the reception. Her parents help Ukranian immigrants when they arrive, and it showed in the wedding. They were married in a Ukranian Catholic wedding, and tons of traditions (and dancers) at the reception. Even what we thought was a gift opening on Sunday was a continuation of reception - you had to shoot some vodka to get in.

And, the descent begins...

So, back to school is starting to creep into my mind... both through commercials and uh, it being August. Yay for me - I know where I'm going :) and I've been busy throughout the last two weeks, and have a few things lined up before I'm "back at it."
Fringe was this week. I am so glad I randomly decided to volunteer there last year... it is a blast! I get to see some plays, be with like-minded volunteers and talk with crazy-talented fringe performers. There were a few amazing plays this year, and talked a little with the performers of some of them. One was a song cycle called "Twenty-Five" (songs are connected but not overly related like a musical is), and all the people singing are just finishing their music degrees. We chatted about different requirements (thank goodness their piano wasn't portable... they were asking me to play my lefty stuff...), and a few actors once they found out I'm a teacher, had some great conversations! One man (jem rolls) talked about his experience in England schools to make sure that I wasn't like one of "those bloody imbeciles". Another (his play, Big Shot was probably the best of Fringe in my books), talked about how he related to his teachers, and was pumped that I do music and photo (and we have dance... and musicals).
Also saw a ton of students there - most of them went out of their way to say hi ;) I was wearing a strapless sundress on one of the days... I was frequently reminded that I was violating the dress code (bare shoulders). Easy reply: tell the VP when school's back in if I wear it on school grounds lol. I was also lucky enough to run into a guy I went to high school with during his brief trip back home from Korea, and although we only spoke shortly, it was good to see! (The assistant producer is also a high school friend) I just loved that environment. Maybe it's Broadway and my connection there, or the acceptance in the fringe, even with basically complete strangers.

WICKED is this week!!! Mom and I are going to a matinee performance. Super excited - haven't seen a musical since London with Les Mis (sorry, not counting TD's Little Shop...). Now, I realize these are completely different musicals, but nonetheless, it's a professional production. If I wasn't such a nervous performer, I would've loved to pursued that as a career.

And then it's the week of weddings - my cousin is getting married on Saturday here (to yet another WMCI grad - we're the best lol). Should be fun, and huge! Get to see some family that don't live here anymore, so that's a definite plus. Then, the next Thursday, it's a drive to BC so I can shoot another cousin's wedding, then drive home Sun/Mon... to be at school (shudder) on Thursday.

And, in there, I still have to finish my parents' deck/fence painting, do some January conference planning, and finish my prep for school! And of course a few unofficial staff gatherings better be in the works :)

Well, I can't say I'll be bored until school starts (or I give you permission to hit me...)

Tis been good this week....

So, Monday was my birthday - woohoo, here comes 28!! Last year rocked, so hopefully the trend continues.
   And, it kinda has. On Monday, a bunch of good things happened! First, went to lunch with a colleague, then drove home to find a contract for me to sign (I am super-officially going to teach again lol). Spent time with family, got WICKED TICKETS! Well, I paid for mine, but still. I've heard many good things, so I'm excited. And, another milestone (numbers again) in weightloss world. Major milestone hopefully hitting soon :D
   Mom and I drove to Calgary on Tues. Again, family time with people in Airdrie (without too massive of an asthma attack from the furry friends), and some shopping. First of all, I'm going to have to totally share a POSITIVE retail experience (and since I've worked retail, I'm overly sensitive to customer service). My iPod I bought in 2009 - refurbished - has been acting up for a while. Considering I almost always try to get to an Apple Store when we go to Calgary, I booked an appointment.
   Right away, they offered me a replacement (same model, which works perfectly if I get an iphone this year) at a ridiculously discounted price. So I jumped at it - really, I couldn't find one at one of those liquidation places for that price. Just before we do the paperwork, he decides to run a battery test on it, and my battery has been used enough that I could get a BRAND NEW (again, same model) iPod for $89... we're talking the 32G model, not a Nano. The only catch was I had to go to their other location to pick it up (and it was basically on the way to IKEA). When I get there, the people I talked to were awesome - there had been a glitch and they didn't actually have it. So as "apology" they offered to ship me the iPod, which I thought was decent (I mean, I know inventory glitches happen - and they were honest about it)... but they also waived the BATTERY charge!? So, I get a brand new ipod for FREE delivered to my house as an apology - all for an appointment I was fully expecting them to upsell me to a new model. No selling at all - just honesty. I know that it's a PR thing - I will go back the store if satisfied, yaddayadda... but seriously, I WILL go back. Being polite and honest and not a pushy seller make a great customer experience for me, and they did it to perfection. Proves that Apple really is better :)
     Realized I don't like Calgary traffic when there are accidents: twice this trip, I've been stuck. The first time, we were stuck on Deerfoot for 1.5 hours to get where it only took us like 25, and today, there was an accident with the Ctrain, and I was an hour late getting to my destination. And it's always been on the way OUT of Calgary... as if they're trying to tell me to stay (and find a teaching job? Ya, right).
  Today was the Photoshop seminar. The presenter is the leading authority on PhotoShop, as in all the training online (and official magazine) is edited/run/founded by him. He set up different shoots with different models, took us step by step, from shooting to final product. I learned some, reinforced tons, and have some ideas for both myself and for students. And I got to spend time with a few friends from university, which I love to do :)

   Now, home tomorrow... and more adventures I hope. Maybe I'll remember to actually take pictures... I've been busy and don't have much proof! Guess I'll just have to change that :)

So, summer holidays....

First off, I do love a good SK thunderstorm. However, I do NOT love living alone when the power's out! Thankfully I have an internet stick that runs off cell phone signals and a charged laptop. Way too dependant on technology. It's either blog, or start playing crib by myself, and lose...

Summer has been great so far! I've done a little work on the cabin (staining all the wood on the outside, as per Dad's request) and that's paying off some of my rent for the summer. Also have gotten to see a whole slew of people this time around - almost like I have a social life! (No, the earth didn't just end, but I hear hell may be freezing over!) I have got to have coffee with people I keep 'meaning to,' and next week get to see a few more once I hit Alberta! So many of the people I work with are great to hang out with during the summer too, go figure :) Seriously, I continue to love the fact I got that phone call last August.

And, I know most of you are avid Facebook users, so you've seen this in my status. During the strike days of school, I had to cancel my Photo 30 class trip. Not that it was something huge - just a few hours at the Berry Barn (local attraction with gorgeous grounds to shoot) and take pictures and help out. Some of my former students - now that they've officially graduated - organized a minifield trip this week to the barn! It was pretty cool... they wanted to do this, on their own time. It was so laidback and entertaining. They continue to make me laugh, remembering my own Photo 30 craziness and just being at the time of your life where you're not sure about the next step, just that you're doing it... The four of us had a blast, and judging by the photos on FB, some of their skills have stuck with them :) I know there were some that couldn't make it, so hopefully another opportunity arises.

Heading to Calgary/Airdrie again next week. There is a PhotoShop seminar held by the guys who run Photoshop, and the price was great. I'm super excited about it - get some tips and tricks for myself... and maybe even a few lesson plans. And of course, that also means seeing some good friends, and family. I don't have a lot of shopping plans (I'm not about to buy school clothes when I'm inbetween sizes...grrr I hate this stage), and really, don't have a lot of money. I can't get EI because I'm going to have work in a few weeks, and no paycheck. Don't you just love teaching salaries ;)

I've decided I really need to travel again. So many of my new Guiding friends from India are in Scotland right now for the World Conference. Because we have sooooo many members that should have the opportunity to go, I will only go on one trip as an adult, and India was it. I'm thinking I should do a tour of Europe, stopping at GG people along the way. That would cover Ireland, Scotland, Denmark, Germany, Switzerland, Slovenia, Belaruse, Austria... I'd say that would be quite the couch-surfing adventure! Of course, I'd have to spend time in London again, probably Scotland, maybe a repeat to Paris... Seriously, I'm percolating it in my brain - I was thinking 2012, but that might be a stupid time to tour the UK thanks to the Olympics. 2013 - that would be a hell of a way to celebrate turning 30.... OR, does anyone know someone who needs a travel partner that would pay my way?

... the pouring started up again. The house has shook a few times, and a couple cracks of thunder really made me jump. I'm thinking I'm not going to see any more TV tonight :) What else to do so my computer power isn't all eaten in one swoop... 15-2, 15-4, run is 7 and the right jack is 8...

Grads and other ramblings

  So, grad was last night... which means people dressed up and ceremonies were had. The actual grad ceremony was your standard - list the grads, speak, see people get awards, and clap lots :) In all seriousness, I feel fortunate to have worked with some of these students throughout the year. I taught Guitar and Photo and the 12 level, and had a blast. I know many of the staff who've been there since the beginning have always said good things about this group. If these guys run the world, it will be a happier place at least!

    Had a good time with the students (even met some parents... haha), and had a great day with the staff during the day. Speeches were phenomenal - way better than the speeches when I graduated (mainly because I'm pretty sure I fell asleep during the toasts back in the day). 

 

My grad, now teaching grads!

Have I mentioned how much I LOVE the staff I work with? I spent the entire day with them (coffee with one friend, lunch with a group, afternoon "tea" with some, then "staff collaboration" afterwards). Awesome conversations, I keep laughing and I feel comfortable being me. I'm so glad to return in the fall! Can't wait til Tues, that's for sure :)

  In other, non-work news... I did another 5k run today. And NO WALKING this time! At the Boogie, I walked for 5 minutes to catch my breath. Today I ran the whole thing - now, I did it slowly, but I did it. Even with this wicked cough/smoker's hack. Should I take up smoking to clear it up?

  Booked my ticket for the PhotoShop seminar this July. Good thing I'm teaching it again - it seems to justify me going to Calgary :) 

  Okay, so I should finish cleaning. Not that I should worry - family gathering with family that will be happy to be together rather than critique (at least to my face). 

 Hopefully the rest of my summer has moments filled with fun and adventure. I figure this weekend is a good kick-off!

One day more...

Okay, one final more, but had to throw in a Les Mis reference. Tomorrow is the last period final, then grad, then days of cleaning/planning. Then SUMMER!
Some of the students have really pulled their weight and pulled a credit. I've said this before - it takes more work to FAIL photo than it takes to shoot enough to pass. Don't get me wrong, I was lucky to work with amazing photographers in all grades this semester, but the stress comes from the few that figure I should give them a pass because they graced me with their presence most days.
I had grade 12's today, and this was their last final. Ever (well high school anyways). It was interesting to see their reactions. Of course, I gave them the hardest assignment in the world - breakfast potluck and a portfolio eval. Yup, I am such a witch. Their reactions reminded me of grade 12... but for Murray, it was more about yearbook signing. I have pics from that day (with lots of short hair after grad lol), and I have fun reading the comments from friends. The realization that you won't see these people everyday was scary and overwhelming.
But do high school students really need to "worry" about that? I'm not being cynical. Today there's Facebook (which I use to keep in contact with lost acquaintances), Twitter (which I use too, just for the heck of it), plus blogging, Flickr, Tumblr and any other social media thing I'm forgetting. Really, if you have all your graduating class on your account, do you miss them?
When I started facebook, that is what I did... found as many people as possible. But I quickly realized we are at different spots in life... or that if we didn't really talk in high school, why would we on Facebook? Don't get me wrong. I have made friends with high school people out of high school, but I have also removed a lot of people from my page too. Maybe that's why my class isn't planning a 10 year reunion (that, or I'm not invited). Really, the people I want to keep in touch with I talk to, and hear about others.
Does FB/internet replace real live people talk? Absolutely not. But still, the occasional contact is all most are looking for.

Okay, really should sleep... I'm sure falling asleep while delivering a final isn't all that professional...

25 Random Things...

So... I have a crapload of things running randomly through my head today. It's probably teacher-brain-meltdown, when your brain can't handle the late assignments, lame excuses and poor effort any longer. Maybe by writing them down, I'll be a better teacher tomorrow (that, or one of you will have me committed).
1. If I hear one more time some lame excuse about not handing in stuff, I will scream. I don't care if your dog had a haircut five months ago; it has nothing to do with your ability to have printing in your account.
2. I need to learn to play pingpong.
3. Why was I dumb enough to have all my students work with sharp utensils these last two weeks?
4. Related to 3: I need to get my first aid up-to-date.
5. I think it's funny that someone thought I was a popular girl in high school...
6. What would you dooo for a Klondike Bar? (I told you this was random).
7. I read my work ed. student's job reflection today. I loved it! Keeping a copy for when I need a teaching confidence boost.
8. I had a woman I have never met tell me I look like my father. Excellent... yay Mennonite genes.
9. How hard would it be to start working on my masters? I found a college online I like...
10. I hit another weightloss milestone, tied to numbers. I haven't been this weight since grade 11.
11. I really want to travel this summer, but don't have the money.
12. Related to 11: I need a rich guy.
13. I love living by myself. I don't know if I could live with a roommate (unless, of course, #12 comes true).
14. A grade 12 kid proved today that too many people believe FB is truth.
15. I'm freaking out about training advisor. HELP!
16. Marty Robbins: "A White, Sport Coat, and a... Pink Carnation.... (do-do-do)"
17. Blond or strawberry this summer?
18. I wish my iPod would work. The screen's been wonky.
19. My list of possible tattoos are way too long... so are my piercings.
20. All in one night, my sister was in the hospital for a test, I was at a mediclinic, and my cousin broke his ankle. Hmmmm, gotta love healthcare.
21. Mosquitos v. ticks.... who would win?
22. How many people still call their high school teachers by Ms/Mrs/Mr?? I still do... even though I have gotten 'yelled' at.
23. Staffroom quote: "Can we all go to 'Bad Teacher' and call it PD?"
24. My dad is Oscar: Oscar the grouch, and Oscar from Corner Gas (24.5: Meg is Hank).
25. "Unravelling the mystery... it all started with a Big Bang!! (*BANG)"

Maybe I should go find the padded room now :)

Good day for my self-confidence :)

     So... I will be returning to my current position in the fall. Long story short, the school is combining the mat leaves - I'll probably teach a bunch of photo term 1, with a guitar class; then term 2 will be at least a few guitar classes. Nothing is overly official (mainly because the guitar mat leave isn't technically covered yet until she files the paperwork). So, I'm happy - love the school, get to try the same thing twice (crazy, I know!), and really enjoy the people I work with.

    This summer I have to go to a few weddings (considering I'm the official photographer in one, and unofficial in another) and grad (at the request of my grade 12's :D).  What does that mean? I had to get a dress... which is usually a pain in the ass. And really, I had to; I tried one of my usuals on and it fell off (wow, that's a wardrobe malfunction that NO ONE wants to see). I tried a different store today, and when the salesperson guessed my size I laughed (why do they do that - seriously, I would've never tried to do that working retail!!). However, the joke was on me: she was right! The dress I got was a full 3 sizes smaller than the last dress I bought. Now I have to get shoes... blah (hate more than clothes shopping. Yes, I'm sure I'm really female lol).

     And then I went to the Dance showcase at school. I had one of my "problem" students from my contract from hell give me a hug (saying I was her favourite, yada yada yada). And my boss from my last retail gig was there and we talked for a bit. It felt good saying my life was on track *and that I wasn't wanting to go back for the summer... especially after finding out some students work there now.

    Just the little things added up today. Throw in a good visit with colleagues, staff bbq and a good mood... this is what I look forward to. Hopefully tomorrow is even better!

No theme *other than work*, just rambling...

   Today was an odd day today at school. Hope the rest of the week isn't like this!

   With the voluntary removal of services, I found that I accomplished a lot more. But, I had to deal with argumentative students: "Why should I work outside of the period when YOU DON'T?" (My reply: "I work outside of the period, just without students. Get back to work and hand something in.") I am seriously considering printing out the Education Act, and highlighting what teachers are required to do by law - and what students are required to do as well! That may shock a few.

   Wednesday is the final deadline for all these assignments I've been trying to collect in vain. Everyone has known since April 30 of every single assignment due, and several work periods. So why are there only 4 students out of all my periods that are all done? I appreciate that Photo is not the highest academic priority, but hell, shoot on the weekend and edit in class. You'll be done quicker than your realize! Frustration to an extreme. I've had to call 30 parents because as it stands, that many are looking to fail. Fail Photo!? Really, you have to TRY to fail photo.

   Find out about jobs this week. Basically there are four situations that could happen for me, two unlikely. The first unlikely: I'm finished my semester and return to the sublist. If that happens, I did something horribly wrong (which I doubt, judging from reaction from admin and students). Second unlikely: offered a PERMANENT contract. That is the ultimate goal, one I've never been closer to since I start subbing. But high schools in general will have a few less students overall, and that impacts 'hiring.'

   The two likely scenarios are I continue in Photo (finish in January), or start the music mat leave (for all year). Obviously, I would love the music contract. It's the one that I did in September-November, and it's guitar. But Photo would be awesome too - finally starting to get used to it, and would have a lot of fun with the knowledge the students should've learned this term. In any case, I have been told I'll know by mid-week. I'm hoping everything really is fallng into place, and not falling out from under me, like 5 years ago. It took me 5 years to get back to a good place in most aspects!

  But, I'm trying to destress. I went for a run (ha - okay, some of that was relaxing, but I'm not at the point of enjoying it completely!), took a long hot shower, and just relaxing in front of the tv. If I was into wine, I'd probably drink that too... ooo, I have bailey's.... gotta go :)

One of my many journeys...

   I honestly believe life is a series of journeys, with the process just as important (if not more) than the destination. The journey of school, uni, work (retail), relationships, and the journey of self. I have always had a weight problem.

   I am an emotional eater. In high school, dealing with the 'normal' teenage drama, a few deaths, accidents and emergencies plus low self image (add a few bad experiences in phys.ed. with one teacher put me off  physical activity for nearly a decade) didn't help. Add the "healthy" food of the buffeteria in Ed, and my experience leaving Ktown, it's a crappy equation. And, if you've met most of my family you'll know that weight is an issue for most of us. Even my athletic father had issues. I'm not blaming genetics, but I believe it's part of the reason. I've tried damn hard to never let my size stop me from doing what I want to do, and honestly can't think of anytime when it really did.

   In any case, I really didn't do much until I started wanting to travel. When I was in a position financially to start travelling, I tried Weight Watchers online. I learned quickly I need accountability, and the online didn't work well. Backpacked the UK, and had an amazing time, with no limitations. Last year I was supposed to go to Switzerland for a Girl Guide conference, with the 'hostel' a 45 minute walk from the bus stop, incline all the way. I started walking again, and even when the conference was kiboshed (stupid Icelandic volcano), I completed the Bridge City Boogie 10k walk.

   Fast forward to this school year, where I walked into an amazing set of circumstances that left me with 3 contracts at the same school. The experiences have given me the confidence to do something (again). My uncle and aunt had success with a weight loss program in the city, loosing about the amount I need to lose to be at a 'healthy' weight. The program has coaching built in, so I have people checking in on me (and not in a condescending way). I've been on the program since my first contract ended in November.

   I'm not saying it's been a breeze - ha! I know this is a long process... I'm looking at meeting my goal in 2012. Which, hopefully, I'm fine with. I'm trying new things - I am taking up running, which may not work out, but at least I tried. I was able to climb a 2.5 storey building in India in March! I'm going to do the Boogie again, and attempt to run some of the 5k. I'm also celebrating small victories: each time I hit a reasonable percentage, I'm doing something for me. Hitting (and passing) the 1/3 mark required a nose piercing :) I have plans for 1/2, 2/3 and the end... which people will figure out once I hit it :)

   Thankfully, I'm seeing changes, even if those around me don't... which is not a dig for compliments - the changes have been so slow that only people who see me occasionally notice. I am wearing clothes that are smaller than when I was in high school (my grad dress it too big!!), and I am at a weight I don't remember being. Very rarely will I mention actual numbers: that is still one area I'm embarassed about. Maybe when I hit a certain point, but for now I tend to give percentages or fractions.

   Looking forward to more of this journey, and excited about the destination :)

Music and me

   I heard a song on the radio today that made me think of this, and considering I have a pile of marking to do, I figured I'd blog instead :)

   Ever make a "soundtrack" for your life? Maybe it's the music geek in me :) but I often think of it. If I ever teach a music class again, it's something I would love to do with students to get them really starting to listen to music and reflecting.

   As long as I can remember - even before I started playing music - there have been songs that stuck with me, or remind of someone/something/sometime. As I got older, I was one of those weird ones that listened to the music in the movies and related it back to the plot or character. 

   Most of the major events in my life have a song that's meaningful to me. There are even songs that remind me of people in my life, lasting or fleeting.

  For example: the song I heard today was "Breathe" by Faith Hill. My cousin passed away ten years ago (in my last post), and I get choked up every time I hear the song - it reminds me of her. Why, I'm not entirely sure: she liked Faith Hill, and I vaguely remember hearing that song on the way to her funeral. 

   My dad's "music" doesn't have a song, but artists: Elvis and Roy Orbison, maybe Hank Williams. Elvis and Dad share a birthday - I've known that as long I remembered birthdays. Hank Williams is one of his favourite artists (I hope I didn't follow in Dad's taste of music in my class!!!), and his voice when he sings reminds me of Roy Orbison, which is a good thing. Most people think of my dad only as a basketball coach and athlete, but out of my parents, he actually took piano lessons for 5 years. When I'm at home, there is always music playing when he can hear it - satellite TV music during supper, and on when he's on the computer.  

  Right now, my mom's song is "Daydream Believer" by either the Monkeys or Anne Murray. Whenever it's on, she sings, and apparently Monkeys were her favourite band as a teen, and she loves Anne Murray now. Meg's is "Hoop There It Is:" a basketball song, because well... that's her passion. It's from the movie Space Jam, which I'm sure she watched a lot of when it came out.
   A guy from high school is "Pretty Fly for a White Guy." Seriously, I see his face every time I hear it (thankfully not too often!). Most of my friends have some sort of music associated with them - sometimes exact songs, sometimes genres or artists. Some of my mus.ed friends have band pieces (sorry! just how I relate). Except my own band teacher: his is "Fishin in the Dark" by Nitty Gritty Dirt Band. I graduated just as Guitar was starting to taught, and I came in for help while that was playing. Over and over. My theory prof did a lecture of the "Hanging Tree" by Marty Robbins, going over the theory and linking it with lyrics. 

   My university career is summed up with a classical song (of course): Scriabin's "Nocturne in Db" that I recorded. The recording is from my final year concert, and it was the best I have ever played it. When it randomly plays on my iPod, I still get the same feeling when it starts playing. It was my major accomplishment, and sounds more than just one hand (long story - I played my last two recitals lefthanded only due to my wrist). 

   My teaching career is "Defying Gravity" in the Wicked musical (yay Glee for making it famous!!). It takes a leap of faith to sub, hoping to make it work... Bob took a leap of faith calling me last August, and I took a leap of faith with the students trying to learn/teach guitar, then Social 9, now photo. Also hoping (having faith) that this extends to next year somehow.

   Maybe finding connections help me experiment and listen to different music constantly. 

   Or, it's my excuse for having almost 2300 songs on my iPod :)

The merry month of May?

      I have decided I hate the month of May. At its face, it sounds odd: it (supposedly) starts spring and warm weather here, it's closer to summer holidays, May long. Heck, my parents' wedding anniversary is in May, my high school graduation was in May 2001 (oh, the days of celebrating nearly 6 weeks before you knew for sure if you passed). But past and recent events make me believe that May is not my month.
    For starters, we lost another family member this month. Ethan was a little boy who, two weeks shy of his first birthday, didn't survive complications from heart surgery. His grandfather and my dad are cousins, and his mom is also a substitute teacher. I can't imagine the trauma that entails. The funeral is tomorrow.
      Lisa and Shaun have been through so much; Ethan was born with severe heart problems. When he was born, the doctors found the heart problems too much to handle, and they left the hospital for Ethan to die. He lived, and soon specialists started watching him. Long story short, many miracles later, the only doctor willing to operate was in California, so the family went. Ethan had the surgery on the 13, and passed away May 1. Rest peacefully, Ethan, and allow your family to find the strength to  continue.

    My grandmother also died in May. I was 14; just finishing Grade 9. Granny had lived with us for almost two years by that point, and always spent a fair amount of time in the hospital. I remember when Mom called when she passed; I asked how Grandma was doing, and Mom specifically repeated that she needed to speak with Dad. That's when I knew. Grandma was quite unhealthy - thanks to her emphysema, I will never smoke. She was depressed and wanted to go. She waited until my mom arrived that day at the hospital, and went to sleep. It's hard to believe I haven't seen her in 13 years.

    But I think the death that has affected me the most was my cousin. On my mom's side, I only had two cousins: two sisters (four granddaughters only!). Theresa started getting sick when I was at the end of grade 6, and due to a unique illness, she wasn't diagnosed for months. That was the year that I learned way too much medical processes and terminologies and decided I would NEVER be a doctor or nurse. Her disease destroyed her kidneys, requiring dialysis three times a week for the rest of her life. She was only 17 when diagnosed, and barely made her graduation. She was sick for 6 years. Later on, we found she suffered from major depression, but tried to hide it from my family. I don't blame her: how would you like to spend your "fun years" not allowed to touch alcohol, be exhausted and in/out of hospital?
She was like an older sister to me. The four of us were close: when there are only two siblings that each have two daughters, it doesn't take much to have family gatherings. Even now, her sister's two kids feel more like a niece and nephew than 2nd cousins.
     Fast forward to Easter of 2001, the medications that she continued to take caused leukaemia. That, on top of the Wegener's, meant she had to have a stem cell transplant. If worked, she would be able to have a kidney transplant, and effectively be cured of both. Her sister was the donor: she had to stop breastfeeding her 5 month old son to start injecting growth hormones. Terry's body couldn't handle the dialysis after the transplant. There were a few times where Mom was called to the hospital because they thought that might be it. Then, on May 10, 2001, surrounded by her parents, sister, and my mom, she slipped away. It's been almost a decade, and I can't go to the graveside. I have never been there; I'm sure that's denial, but I don't want to think of her like that. Maybe one day, with the right support.

  Coincidentally, that same morning she died, my dad's mom also was admitted to the hospital, with severe health concerns. Needless to say, I truly believe that was the worst day of my life. Grandma 'recovered' after a few weeks in hospital.

 Throw in Dad's best friend dying in 2005 (many teachers probably remember it because he died after school in the middle of the week), and Mom's diagnosis in May as well.

  So, forgive me if I don't jump for joy that we're in May. I can't wait for June 1.

Okay, I guess this is a fail...

So, I haven't posted since I came back, but it's been crazy.

I had the "bright" idea of having several assignments due while I was away, so there was tons of marking when I got back. Got that 'settled' (as much as a teacher can), and it was report card time. Throw in a sinus infection, and you've got what my few weeks have been like.

BUT, I did get my photos done! Yay :) It was my 'me' time, something I'm still figuring out (even though I've been a 'teacher' since 2006, I really haven't done full time before, so it's kinda like a first year teacher). I was going to post them as part of my photo challenge, but I'm not too sure about that. I think that this will just be a blog - want to see new photos, talk to me through facebook or in person :)

I'm still working on YWWF stuff too... I have to write up an adult training, and figure out my report still. I am finding myself trying to tell stories about India  all the time, which I know is normal (but annoying to those around me!). Let me know if it's too much please :)

I will make this more constant. This is a weird time of year for me; not what I'm going into now, but I know it has something to do with it. 

Day 5 - fun... and almost done

Today was another good day!

To start off, after yoga, there was a water-tower climb. The tower was 14.5 m! (So, in my rough - way-too-tired math, that should be about 50 feet.) So I climbed to the top, on a small ladder, with a cage around me. Why did I do this, with a fear of heights? I have no idea, but I did it. The worst was the way down. I had a few panic moments, because you can't look down, and the rungs were quite small and you had to "feel" for them with your feet. (I can only imagine the Safe Guide paperwork had I been in Canada - one of the WAGGGS board members told us not to fall because of the forms lol... gee, haven't heard that before). The view was completely worth it though!

We also tried to skype with the other world centres. It kind of worked; Cabana was not in because of the time difference (which makes sense, as they are practically SK time), but the quality was iffy. What was interesting was that we, Sangam, probably the most technologically unreliable, has been producing the most web stuff! (If you go to wagggsworld.org, find the YWFF section, you should see photos and videos uploaded each day - my patrol's video will be up in the morning!)

We ended with a "night on the town." We went to Vishtavardi, a neighbourhood 10 minute walk from Sangam. Shopped (found a tunic I like! and some other things) and went to a vegetarian restaurant for supper. Delicious!

I really enjoy it here. Part of me wants to apply for volunteering or a communications intern, but the logical part of me says I need to wait until a contract turns permanent... man this life stuff gets in the way.

Hard to believe we leave in just over 24 hours! Mandy, Reike and I leave at the same time (3 AM) so I'm not planning on sleeping tomorrow night - so expect even more of a rambling blog!

Ali

Day 4 - powerful!

Today was the day of the field visit. We went to the slums - there is a movement that this female doctor is doing in them. She is training girls 11-20 to learn skills like sewing, computer, basic health/hygiene, feminine stuff. In turn, they are able to help provide for their families and teach others in the community. It actually has been working. Some of these girls are now employed, some even the breadwinners for their parents or families.

The girls were great - they were so happy and proud to show us their skills and talk with us. In our group (we split into 5 groups), there were girls that have only been in the project for a few weeks. They were confident when talking to us. When we arrived, many children were on their way to school, but soon the entire area knew we were there and came to look, or pictures.

We played some games with the girls as an icebreaker (now have some more ideas!), and then we "talked." Many tried to speak English with us - thankfully one of the graduates helped interpret. They also did mehendi on us (I have a cute design, very small but visible!).

Then we toured the slum a bit, and went into 2 houses. For comparison - the small house would have been the size of the living room at Pike Lake (and that includes the kitchen and one bedroom). The bedroom was for the son, and the other 4 members slept on the floor in the kitchen, with is smaller than the bathroom at Pike. No running water, and lots of electrical cords everywhere and extension cords. Yet they were so excited (we actually were invited to 10 houses!) and proud to show us what they have.

The second house is probably like their middle class. This one had 2 levels, but still tiny (I have pictures). This was better built... and there are 7 people there. Plus all the family that came to meet us :) They even went out and bought a lemon-juice drink (think flat seven-up but good)... again, treating us like royalty.

I was scared going in that I would be bawling, and depressed. While some of us had that reaction, I didn't - in fact, the complete opposite. Talk about girl empowerment! Talking with these families about the girls before and after was great. If a girl isn't in school, they aren't to leave the house... literally watching tv or housework. Now that they go to training, they are finding jobs. One even stood up to her family to get work instead of marrying a "bad" man. Can you imagine in a culture that dictates early marriage? (It was pointed out that I am past the point of marrying... oops).

So much was overwhelming - sights, sounds, the people (their welcoming reaction blew me away), the smells, the cars. Really everything. One young girl stayed with me most of the time, grabbing my hand to make sure I crossed the street safely (believe me, that was challengin!), and proudly pointing out cousins, and her house. Huge smiles, and awkward English, but proud... and she's only been in for 14 days. While this project will only help with 100 girls, the lasting impact and ripple effect will positively affect this community.

The rest of the day was spent using the video footage to create small videos about each part (then making it into a Sangam one - the other world centres are as well). It should be interesting to see everyone's and the other projects.

I'm exhausted, but only 2 more days... then one night of no sleep (we have to leave Sangam at 3 AM to get to the airport for our flight), then home. Wow - so much information! Tomorrow is Indian night - we are eating out and shopping as a group near the slums we were in today. Maybe people will get stuff from here after all :)

Ali

Day 3... halfway done!

So, the "real" stuff begins... we've finished on our self-development, and started on WAGGGS diversity and advocacy. My realization of the day is that although I've been trained several times on advocacy (heck, I even train it!!!) I really don't know a lot about it. I know theory of something that isn't designed to be in a vaccuum... advocacy and community leadership have so much overlap but still are interconnected.

This will be short... I'm tired :) It's been warm (okay, freaking hot, but based on what I saw on SK weather, I'm shutting up), and it's draining.

Yoga in the morning has been AWESOME! Seriously, doing yoga in the morning in India, with an Indian instructor... what better way could there be to learn it? Of course, in a 5 day span (that's when she comes) I'm not going to "learn" much, but it's been fun. There's only about 6 of us taking advantage of it, which is even better!

I guess I haven't said the statistics yet. There are 35 participants from 30 countries... and every region is represented. I'm sharing a dorm with ladies from: Maldives, Slovenia, Guyana, DRC (Congo), Uganda and Ireland. It's been great - and I'm relearning French (most here are only English speaking, and a few that are only French speaking, with group activities and not a lot of interpreters (that's another post - I feel like I'm at the UN sometimes!). There are a few WAGGGS board members and planning members here, plus the staff/volunteers (one actually finished and left today!).

Okay, yoga is in 8 hours... maybe sleep? Tomorrow will be a huge day - we're going on a field experience to the slums. Not like the slums in cities in North America - here, that's where the middle class would live. Like, illegal tents pitched in random lots and housing over a thousand people. I'm trying to prepare to be overwhelmed... which, by definition, is probably impossible. I'll try to explain later!

G'night (we have a few aussies too!)

Day 2

Another busy day… and now we actually started on the MDG’s.

GGC already has projects in place to develop the MDG’s in our organization, which is great and not-so-much. Great because we already have the plans in place, and girls across the country know what we’re about, and what WAGGGS is doing.

The not-so-much… we are supposed to come up with projects that reflect the MDGs to use. It’s hard to compete with such complete program work. We (some of the delegates from like organizations) figure we’ll create smaller projects to work on with our communities/regions/etc.

It’s been interesting to hear the different ideas about projects from around the world. Everything from getting drinking water in a community to getting positive service exposure have all been discussed, all very strong, and without judgement. We are all here to make a difference in our MO, no matter what. I love this part of Girl Guides!

We just finished up International Night. The Canadians had a costume :D Seriously. We both had Olympic gear on (me from 2004, Mandy from recently, and both of us had Olympic Mittens). It was a hit, considering some didn’t do anything. And the maple fudge and saskatoon berries were a hit as well… which means Dad doesn’t get any when I get back. Oops.

I wish I could post photos, but the internet here is not condusive to more than 10 minutes at a time. I guess if you want to see photos, you’ll have to see me!

Ali

Holi Day!!!

So, end of the official day one... and it's been good!
Today we had our first official sessions - WAGGGS sessions. We also had Holi! It's a Hindu ceremony that requires throwing paint powder and water on one another. Why? The tradition is to cover everyone so you can't tell your friends from your foes. We did a Sangam one; with water guns and eco-friendly paints (that washed off okay).

We also had opening ceremonies... well, both yesterday and today. Yesterday was the welcome to India/Sangam ceremony - very beautiful. We were each blessed and there were candles and lamps. The Sangam staff were in their official saris. Even a professional photographer (we weren't allowed to take photos).
Today was the online version. It wasn't exactly what I thought it would be - I thought there would be more live stuff. It was prerecorded, and Pax Lodge wasn't online in the end (internet problems). Mandy and I had to say the "new" promise and it made the ceremonies (right after we were blessed/welcomed into India last night, so we had markings and flowers as an added touch!). Again, wasn't allowed to take photos because of the recording equipment.

Sessions were okay today - a lot of it I train already, so it was good to see some different techniques. Ended with a pizza supper and ice cream (I think it was a chai-caramel... yummmmmm) and now sitting on the veranda typing :)

Tomorrow is international night, so that should be entertaining!

Ali

Mom - I made it :D

So, after two long flights with a short beginner one, losing a day and teaching the day before, I MADE IT :)

Sangam, so far, is indescribable. India is such a different country than Canada - my friend was right when she told me to expect to see/hear/smell NOTHING familiar. Mandy and I arrived at 5am to Sangam (with a volunteer picking us up - complete with a sign welcoming us!). We crashed until breakfast (which was an omelet and toast with cereals... nice and safe lol). The best way to describe Sangam is kinda like a resort - it's in a slum, but the grounds are beautiful and well kept.

One of the ladies in my dorm (7 people to a dorm) used to be a volunteer here, so 10 of us spent the morning in Pune at the market. This is when my camera BIT THE DUST. Yup, won't open, won't turn on, batteries are charged (took pictures yesterday). So, being the photo geek I am - sorry Dad - I bought another camera. In all honesty, it was a great deal, at less than half what I would pay at home, and it works well so far. Just didn't think my main souvenir would be another digital camera. I think I may be able to tinker with the old one, but it really wasn't working. Some gorgeous fabrics, bangles, etc... lots of pictures (including the rickshaw ride!). It was also sweet when 2 schoolgirls came up to us because they realized we were Girl Guides (they were too).

Just finished lunch - very mild vegetable curry, flatbread, rice and a lentil sauce. Dessert was fresh watermelon :) Delicious as it's just in season and local (their mango jam is pretty fabulous, made with Sangam mangos). Going to cool down in the pool right away (it's above 30 - humid but not crazy humid). I would post pictures, but there are others here who want to email home to say they made it. Then it's orientation and the Holi celebration after supper (I get to throw paint at people!! Yes, there will be pics of that).

I probably won't post until at least tomorrow - maybe later.

Al

New twist on the blog (until April 1)

So, I'm going to India right away (like less than 48 hours). I am one of the delegates at the Young Women's World Forum, representing Girl Guides of Canada at one of the four centres the conference is being held at (simultaneously).
http://wagggsworld.org/en/news/20968 is a bit of information - check out the opening ceremonies live! (Should be roughly 8:30 AM Sask time this Sunday). This is the first time they have used all four world centres at the same time for the same conference.

I will (hopefully) using this as a check-in point for certain people who keep checking up on me, and if there is decent service, to at the very least post unedited pictures.

I can hardly wait!!

Weekly challenge... challenge?

So, I've been trying the last two days to post something, and the link goes weird. Right now I have intermittent internet, so I may postpone.

I will be doing my trip through blog and some pictures. Hopefully that works!!

Have a good week :)

Week one challenge

So, I took the photos I needed for this week. I will try to say what I took and why...

The challenge...

So, I'm going to try this, and see what happens.
I teach photography, and I make my students create independent projects, and I realize I should do some photo stuff to expand my horizons. I've decided I'm going to post a photo a day (well, the equivalent anyways!). I won't always post NEW photos, but I will edit the day I post. (I know with my schedule that I cannot always shoot photos)
So, starting on Monday... I will post the equivalent of a picture a day! Here's hoping it works :)

Starting this blog all over again :)

Hi everyone,


Yes, it's started again. But this time there is a purpose! I am travelling in March to India for Girl Guides, and I've got a contract. So what? I'm teaching photography, and apparently there's internet access at Sangam. So... most of the views probably will be the Photo 20 and 30 classes I am lucky to teach. I hope to post several pictures (pre-edit even) and have them comment while I'm gone.


Afterwards, who knows? I've had blogs before, and one I only comment every six months, so we'll see. But, for now, enjoy! (And, a pic to make sure attachments work okay... from Thanksgiving)